It happens with many. He being no exception. He treats himself as guilty for things he did in the past. The world gave him a clean chit because they didn’t know his crime. Only he knew and he wanted justice for his own wrongdoings. He wanted to pay for his sins. He became his own judge and the punishment he chose was grave. The stains on his conscience is getting cleaned every day. The verdict was tough but he knows; it’s the only way he could redeem his life.